But, I'm not.
I hate how someone will make a comment, something in jest or a small aside, and yet something about that comment sticks in your head. You can't let it go. Your mind keeps turning it over and over . Making a big deal out of most likely nothing, or taking something very hard to heart that you'll never forget.
I'm damaged. That was the comment that was made, and it hit me really hard. They were talking about something completely silly about me and made the comment that I was damaged. And it struck me. I sat there and didn't say anything for a moment. Just thinking about that statement in a larger context.
I am damaged.
I was something good but now I'm not.
Still functional but not as good as the original.
Not the same as normal.
My feelings, my reactions, my mind, and my body... I am damaged.
I won't say what's on my mind.
I'm in conflict with what I want from people .
I never feel comfortable in my skin.
My wants/desires and willpower don't mesh.
I'm a contradiction.
I am damaged.
Thanks for telling me.
