I don't know

There is this feeling. And I don't even know how to describe it. Maybe a foreboding sadness. I don't know. But it's like I want something. And I don't know what it is. And it bothers me. Cause if I knew what it was I could fix it or at least get a handle on it. But no. It's just this alien feeling in my chest. And I sometimes can't figure out if I should be mad and just have a good screaming match or if I'm sad and just need a good cry . Sometimes it feels like both should happen at once. I don't even know how to talk about what it is I'm feeling since I don't even know what the feeling is.

I want it to just go away, cause feelings that I don't get a handle on have a tendency to be depression related. And there's a part of me that's worried that this is somehow related to that . I don't want it to be, I have been doing so well and have actually been experiencing happiness on a regular basis and not just in fleeting moments. 

Maybe I just need a cuddle, or some affection of some type. Some time spent with a pet or something. I don't know...
I want to talk to someone, but they aren't talking to me right now, and I miss them.

Feelings go away.....