So. I have a problem. I have become ridiculously attached to a new friend. Why is this a problem you ask? Isn't making new friends a good thing? And spending time with those friends good as well ? My answer: yes, it is very nice.
It is nice to have a new person in my life who actually gets me. Who understands going through shitty times and getting through them.
It weird to spend so much time with someone who isn't my best friend. I wonder if it's more of an obsessive thing, like getting a new toy and having to play with it all the time and ignoring everything else. Or if it's more of a thing of convenience since I am always welcome to drop by and I am never doing anything else. I really don't know. I do know that I spend 6-7 days a week hanging out with them in some way . And almost every sentence I say to others involves their name or something we did. I guess I don't think of this as a bad thing now, it worries me though that I've become so attached to someone so fast. I am friendly and can make acquaintances like nobody's business, but to find a true friend, or one that I consider as such is rare. I have few close friends and most of them (ok well 2 of them which actually makes a small majority ) I've known since early childhood. I've not expanded my circle much since then. Especially since the whole depression thing. It really separates the wheat from the chaff. When you're a sad person to be around very few people actually stay around you. Can't say I blame them, but friends should be better than that I feel.
So, this problem, that's not a problem (yet ) I think I'm going to take in stride. The opportunity is too great to pass up on, just because I'm worried about what might happen if I lose this.
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