The Rest of My Life

Today, I am making a change.
Today, I am taking a stand.
Today, I am deciding to better my life.

For many years, I have struggled with weight. Some due to depression, some due to convenience, and some due to being raised with bad habits. But, mainly due to lack of self control. I begin a program, make a plan, start to lose and then I give up. I let a bad day turn into a bad week, and then I'm done.
I'll restart tomorrow. I'll restart on Monday. I'll restart at the beginning of the month. I'll start at the beginning of the year.
NO MORE!
I am wasting my life. I am 21 years old and I've spent more than half of my life overweight to some degree. I have missed out on many opportunities, been made to feel excluded, and been made to feel inferior because of my weight. I am also going to be risking health issues soon if I don't make a change. A REAL CHANGE.
I want to be healthy. I want to be fit. But, most of all, I want to be me, the me that's buried under a layer of fat. I want to walk around in my skin and not be dragging along another person's worth of weight.
I don't expect this to be easy. I don't expect this to happen quickly (after all it took years to get this big). But I do expect to make it a lifestyle change. Gone will be the days of eating out multiple times a week. Gone will be the day of overindulgence in sweets. Gone will be the days of avoiding the gym.
I expect I will try to be sabotaged, by myself and others. Some out of ignorance, some by deliberate action. I refuse to be brought down.
I want to have a good life, and I want this to be THAT life.
I want this for the rest of my life.
And I am starting .....


NOW!